For starters, I could get a God Box. That is a tangible way to turn things over, but I'm not sure if it will keep my mind from playing tricks on me.I have to learn not to dwell on things. I can do this through prayer, meditation, calling my sponsor, and going to meetings. I cannot really pray for a specific result--or I can--but it it better to pray for guidance and acceptance of whatever result God has intended for me. That slips off the keyboard easily; however, in practice, it is much harder.
How can I stop myself from taking my will back?
I have to pray to have the strength not to take my will back.
Today was Rudy's second day of work. He has not been drinking, though he is smoking pot. I have to admit, of all the drug and alcohol evils, I find pot to be the least toxic. Anyway, he has a hard time getting to sleep at a reasonable hour. He tried going to sleep then woke up and made rigatoni and chicken for us both.
This morning I tried getting him up. It is not my responsibility to get him up, I know, and he has an alarm clock that's like a sonic boom, but still. I want him to get up and get to work. He needs the job. I need him to have the job. My will. My will. I couldn't get him up and went out on the balcony. Was I interfering in God's will with a wake-up call? Then I heard him get up and turn on the shower. I guess I feel like I should help him get up until he gets a natural pattern going. Or not. I really believe if I don't wake him up (a relentless chore), he won't get up and go to work. This is one I want to turn over to God--but not just yet.What can I do when my loved ones make decisions I don't like?
Be supportive and turn it over to God. If it's somthing I don't feel like I can support--then just turn it over to God.
How can I let my loved ones find their own life paths as I am finding mine?
Get out of their way and mine. Don't solicit advice unless it's asked for. Don't try to fix things for them.
What can I do to try to see others as God sees them?
Really, I can't fathom how God sees anyone--if I could--then I would be God, but I can trust he has a path and a plan for each of us, and Rudy is actually religious, so the concept of God and prayer is not alien to him.
How can I express God's will in my actions and words toward others, including the alcoholic?
This seems like a loaded question--the answer being "with kindness." Truth is, I am by nature an asshole, and kindness does not come easy. At any rate, I am not nagging at him. I can also stop telling people what to do.
Step Three: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him.
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